Ah... The sound of the wind blowing, the sky full of stars, what a peaceful night. I don't even know where to start, our relationship was... hard to forget but somewhat unusual.
Today is... well, today is suppose to be a great day but every year I kept torment myself even more, I don't know why I deserve this pain and loss, was it because I did something terrible? Or was it God's will?
Fate. A simple word but yet, I still haven't figured out what it really means...
Sometimes I looked up into the night sky, the stars... it reminds me of your eyes, they shine so bright, I just want to save that light, the wind, it's like a warm hug from you.
I'm trying my best to become a person that the world would accept, sometimes it kicked me hard but I always put on a smile and keep going, in the end, I always end up with my eyes turned red and some broken furniture. Without you, the easiest choice would make me think for hours, without you, I could have failed high school, without you, I might never get to experience those feelings ever again...
The heart is dead, the mind is blurry, the little voice is getting louder every day and yet, the soul remains. I do not know why I have chosen not to leave. All I know is that I am here. Nothing has changed as a result of my presence... I want to chat with you for the last time, so I could say a proper farewell and let go of you, and those nightmares of that dreadful day? I rarely see them now, I'll try to take care of myself so don't worry much. Wherever you are right now, thank you for looking after me, goodbye and good luck.
I wonder, that day, if our position were switched... Would our... fates be different?
Would you still hold on to me for a while? Or you just gonna wash those memories away?