I'm lost, I feel empty, what I need is to wake up
With faith, buried in me, buried inside of my heart,
I’ve lost it all because,
“Believe in love and hope” is everything what we always pray
But is it love that makes us fight;
Is it hope, which robs us the light?
I admire those who fight,
For a better world, a better place to die.

Is this everything we need to be fine?
Our hearts are cold, even if we don’t freeze.
In the distance are colors that we don’t perceive,
Correct me, but even if we open our eyes,
We are blind as we never should be.

I can see our selfish faces, what I need is to wake up
I am lost.
This is a nightmare, it could not be worse

Because, we are liars,
We pray for hope and love every day.
We are liars
Now I have fear, now I slip away, now I disappear
When it is love that makes us fight?
Why is it hope that still let me see the sun?

I think I see the light, the only thing is,
I wonder what has become of me.
That is what makes me see,
And this is the reason why I ask myself

Is it love that makes me fight?
Is it hope against the light?
Now I believe,
In the distance there are colors I don’t perceive,
Correct me, but even if I open my eyes,
I am blind as I never, never should be.

Am I colorblind?
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A silhouette walking in the hallway at a fast pace.
Rays of light throught the curtains,
Flood and light up your comfortable house.
Tireless hands sew doilies, and caress me to sleep.
A figure that means all the world to the eyes of a kid.
I'm still that kid.
(Now)

Go, I have finally grown up,
But i'm still out of place.
When the sparks in your eyes dim to coal, it leaves us groping in the dark.
Lend me your eyes to see the beauties of this world.
Lend me you ears so I can silence the noise.
(All the noise)

I see a silhouette plodding along the hallway with a slow stride.
Although petite your aura is perceptible in every corner of your huge house,
Now keep your eyes shut, take the last breath.

Go, I have finally grown up,
But i'm still out of place.
When the sparks in your eyes dim to coal, it leaves us groping in the dark.
Lend me your eyes to see the beauties of this world.
The spark in those eyes now has turned 'em into vacant.
And it left us groping in the dark.

I am afraid that life's too ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ much to end up in a pity funeral.
We don't have much time to give our lives a meaning,
And I'm sorry that I wasted all of what you created.

We never knew the truth about love, about heaven.
But if you died in this love, you can come forth in peace.
Hell are the others.

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I'm not scared to die anymore, a simple statement that I shouldn't have to say at this age,
but it's a true statement as death reduces time in a secluded state.
Although I don't wish to invest my ideas in hopelessness, I feel as if they've been wasted, as if they're turning the handle on a locked door that needs a key, but that key does not exist,
why do I feel this hopeless?
I shouldn't feel this way at this young age, I have a whole life to rot in my grave.

I shouldn't feel this way at this young age, I've spent my whole life turning in my grave.
Staying bitter about all of my failures, I won't fail this time.

I always said I'd never let myself get like this, it's breaking me to the core.
I've always felt as if I've been put second best to the ones who I despise.
I can't keep this hole in my chest
I always feel the guilt for never being there
For myself when I needed me the most
I've lost all love, my life is monochrome.

I've lost all love, my life is monochrome, and when I find myself I will find my home.

I've found sadness in this state, and what if a life of no love awaits? I'm not afraid to say that i can't go on, I can't go on feeling this way.
I hate my life and all around me is bleak.
Am I less of a man if I admit I'm weak?
Because I feel sick, I'm tired and bored of my routine and all my ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ flaws.

I always said I'd never let myself get like this, it's breaking me to the core.
I've always felt as if I've been put second best to the ones who I despise.
I can't keep this hole in my chest
I always feel the guilt for never being there,
For myself when I needed me the most
I've lost all love, and my life is monochrome.

I've lost all love, my life is monochrome, i've lost all love, my life is monochrome
I've lost all love, I've lost all love, I've lost all love
My life is monochrome.

When I find myself, I will find my home
When I find myself, I will find my home

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Never Mind Me:

I know what it feels like
To be left on your own

To want to end it all
And end the pain you've shown

I know that you feel like it's all your fault
But it's mine
You know?

I never thought I'd be the same
I cried for weeks
I felt the blame
I'm getting worse and you don't know
But I'm not angry anymore

I hate myself
I hate you too
I don’t know what I did to you?

I'm giving up
I'm letting go
Nevermind, you’ll never know

I need you in this moment
But you left me all alone
I'm just sitting and waiting
By the telephone

It's not like you're dead
And it's not like you're dying
But when you told me you loved me
I knew you were lying

I know what it feels like
To be left on your own

To want to end it all
And end the pain you've shown

I know that you feel like it's all your fault
But it's mine
You know?

You sat at the end of my bed
I'll never forget what you said
You told me you were nothing
And you were better off dead

You said you wanted to try again
Just like your son jumping in front of that train

I saw it
I saw the pain in your face
It only gets worse
It doesn't go away

I can hear you crying
And I'm sorry that it hurts
But you can't hear me crying
Because it's hidden in my shirt

You can't hurt me anymore
I already hurt myself
And I still feel like I’m nothing without you

I gave up on you when you gave up on me
I lost hope
I let go
I would give up on me too

You made me think it was all my fault
You’ve broken me, you broke my heart

You told me you tried
You told me you’d end it
You told me you loved me
And I'd never forget it

I'll never forget it
And I'll never forgive you

You're killing me
You've killed yourself

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Sleepshaker-

Memories fleeting, I've lost sight of what I held dear
My sincerity bleeding, numb to any semblance of an apologetic that might remain

Letting honesty decay
I never asked for this
Any of it

I hope you're lonely, I hope you hurt
Because the only thing I think when I'm in bed,
Is how I wish I was in yours.

Caught between a rock and a lie,
Staring at walls to pass the time, bringing me down so low
My pride turned into insecurity,
Our golden age became a black mark on history

I just want you to know
I am loneliness unencumbered by sentiment
But now
I still find your hair inside my clothes
Weighing me down, a gesture unasked, vulnerably exposed
(I hate your ♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ cigarettes)

I feel a struggle in your lungs, every time I touch your lips.
I feel a pounding in between my ears, but never in my chest

I hope you're lonely, I hope you hurt
Because the only thing I think when I'm in bed,
Is how I wish I was in yours.

If this is love, then whats to show for it
Besides the noose coiled around my neck

Am I out of my mind?

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