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Nightmares and dreams can really set the tone for ones day, as many of you have probably experienced. Like when you wake up from a bad nightmare, it tends to leave you in a melancholy and surrealistic state for several hours. On the other hand, if you have a really beautiful dream, which, I can only recall one of in the last decade… and even though it was lucid, it was the most content and at peace I have felt in so many years that it brought tears of joy and gave me a very peaceful sense of self throughout the day. It was as if my mind did me a favor. like it knew how badly I needed it.
I just feel really alone, in large part because of this lucid dreaming, night terrors, and sleep paralysis that I regularly, if not always experience, night after night… someone please help me…. I can’t and I desperately don’t want to take this any longer…

The very first time I remember dying in a dream was when I was about 12-13 YO - I was picked up by this giant human monster. Like, as tall as a 15 story building. …As he was walking with me with me in his hand, he dropped me mid stride, which caused me to land on his upper knee/thigh area as it was in motion to take his next step. I remember feeling the brutal impact and having that darkness surround me for a moment and then eventually waking up into sleep paralysis. No spirit form was taken in that dream. I desperately want and need to do a sleep study because this has been plaguing me for so long and truly has become like a disease in my life that impacts me in almost always a negative way.