(Part 1)
Hello,

I left this comment here, because recently I have reflected on the past, did some research and I have discovered that most likely because of my untreated childhood traumas where I grew up in a poor family with a mother who never valued me and her abusive boyfriend who terrorised me and took advantage of me sexually with the help of my own mother, while I was also bullied in school and had had other issues as well, I have developed narcissism. This also means that I have a sense of entitlement and think that the World owes me something. While in my head this is justified, in reality the World owes me nothing and I cannot expect people to just jump head over heels for me.

(Part 2)
But what I have done to you out of spite, betraying the trust of someone I cared about and the way I had acted during the time we have known each other, words cannot express how wrong I was and the fact that I was completely oblivious about my own actions and how it affected others, makes me want to gag at myself. The way I used to talk to you, the interactions as this weird ‘roleplay’ I used to do, this selfish way of thinking and my manner which was borderline insane, autistic at best is so embarrassing, I’m surprised you were able to endure me this long.

(Part 3)
To say that I'm ashamed of myself would be an understatement, especially the idea that once I was planning to do harm to you is simply disgusting and pathetic.
There is no forgiving for that and I can consider myself lucky that you did not report me to the authorities which would have been validated.
Saying that ‘I’m sorry’ would be as useful as trying to scoop out the ocean with a glass, but it is the least I can do, so allow me to apologize to you and the people on your contact list whom has been affected by my degeneracy and narcissism.

I owed you to tell you this personally, hence why I added you a week ago, but I completely understand why you choose not to accept that and I will respect your decision, so I am not going to bother you with any further messages.